Twisted Logic

Everything changes with graduation. I realize that now. I just wanted a routine.

Heard of my other blog?

Its called Shutter Speed. Just started posting in there today. I am trying to take a picture or two every day and keep a visual diary of things from now on. We'll see how it goes.

http://heleen-joubert.blogspot.com/

creatures and turkey sammis

sitting in the kinaschuk household while clarke and brandon play video games, baby quinn is a barrel of joy whom i could play with for hours. went to wal-mart with kyle and joanne today. the sun is warming the back of my neck as i'm facing away from the window. everyone is happy when quinn comes around.

happy happy happy

2 A M - Anna Nalick

Theres a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout, and you're just as far in as you'll ever be out. These mistakes you made, you'll just make them again, if you only try turning around.

I know its been a helluva long time since I've posted but its not like anyone cool reads this blog anyways. jk.

Lately I've been;

doing an online class im not sure i can handle.
watching two people once so together, drift painfully apart.
getting high with michael in his garage.
trying to just, take better pictures.
dreaming of dying my hair black as the night.
floating down the river with laura.
trying to read 4 books at once
finishing a painting
wasting gas and not caring
unwillingly quitting smoking
wanting to be drunk all the time
applying for jobs
getting blisters on my feet
laughing with bea
getting more and more anxious about moving
getting more and more excited about moving
loving 'my brightest diamond' and Chuck Klosterman
conflicted completely about high school being over
checking the mail every day
watching the human centipede.. ew
brushing my teeth more often (not knowing why)
staying up to see the sun rise
drinking rum and coke from a mcdonalds cup
dancing in gay bars
told that i am a beautiful person
listening to new people
wishing time would speed up
wishing time would slow down
reminiscing, reminiscing, reminiscing
and missing you.

May 30

This weekend was strange at best. Since Juliana and Michael were both out of town and my car was impounded until June 22, i had extra time on my hands. On Friday night I walked to Levi D's house only to wait outside for 20 minutes while he finished slaying his gf. too funny. On my way there I saw Wyatt, also strange. Saturday night I went to Ben's where I got ripped with Arielle Ben and Pryce, after which Brettlyn stuck with me for most of the night, drunk as usual. frustrating. Today I cleaned an apartment with Bea, we had such a blast. Blazed when we came back with Nic and Nic, and had my third 2hr tutor session this weekend. unreal.

if you're reading this i miss you.

I feel it on my skin, warming up my mind

 I hope that if one day we meet again that you give me that smile where you put your tongue under your teeth and go thhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Insist on lighting my cigarette, listen to everything I say, but keep even more to yourself. In the end I couldnt ignore it and I'm sorry. Thanks for the company, the shoulder to lean on, and letting me in to the feeling of your heart.  

"I think we might be fuck ups."

"We're not fuck ups."