my Heart is too big for my head

dear stranger,
i am very unimpressed with you right now. considering what happened the last time we were together, you are proving me right but i hate it. i hate being right about you ditching and i hate being right about people like you in general. i dont get the satisfaction i should from being right! i should feel smart or observant or experienced but all i feel is unwanted and the worst part is i know i will forgive you as long as you ask me to.

dear stranger,
i love you and love being around you. you are like my ray of sunshine and make me feel like a teenager which is unique to you, surprisingly. most everyone else i hang out with expects something from me but not you. things are very easy and i know that if i needed more from you you would happily provide. know that i am always here to talk to cry to laugh to. you are a beautiful soul and i want only good things for you.

dear stranger,
i would really like to get to know you. that is all.

dear stranger,
i love you i love you i love you i miss you come to me be with me always and forever. you make me grow up a little everytime i see you, and though its rough its what i need. you are beautiful inside and out. you eased my chest open and gently melted my heart and helped me shape it into something pretty and new. i love you always.

dear stranger,
i cannot look at you. you hurt me so much that i cannot look at you. and you are doing nothing to fix things. you apologized but i didnt buy it and you are doing nothing.

dear stranger,
thanks for reading my blog.