Doldrums

The past two nights have my head loaded with questions, but not all answers are coming.

Friday; Dinner with Mack.

1. do you just need someone to fill your time? i hope not

2. why are you playing hockey outside, idiots?

3. where are you Emmy Lou....I need somebody and it's usually you

4. where is this party again?

5. who is amanda regoto?

6. what is she DOING?

7. holy shit she scratched him?

8. why is sam's shirt torn like that? eww

9. brettlyn and justine, why the fuck are you so wasted?

10. what are brae and eric doing again? ooooh lord

11. who the fuuuck ate my chicken nuggets

12. do you really care about me? i cant tell anymore

Saturday; woke up at Brettlyns, went for breakfast, picked up Michael, back to Brettlyns to chill with Mike Pryce Levi Nick and Becca, home for a bit, chilled with Jonny and Mike, went to Clarkes for a bit............, saw Wyatt. hmmmmm. got a great txt from Juliana;

blaze sesh. my house. 11pm. dont bring anyone. Saw amazing people at ghoulies, slept at my house with Brettlyn.

1. are you somebody thats fading into my life for good? or for now?

2. how much weed have we smoked in the past 24 hours?

3. how much food have we eaten in the past 24 hours?

4. you dont mind a challenge, but what about consistency? responsibility?

5. im getting what i need, but from the right people? no.

6. do you hate me? i cant tell.

7. oooh my god new bong? whats its name??

8. how do i make you happy? do you know how to be?

9. are we seeing fantastic mr. fox tomorrow? good :)

10. how have i lost 7 pounds?

you're on my mind the most, whether i like it or not. i will always care, whether i like it or not. and i will never know you, it seems, or make you happy, whether i like it or not.